The One With My Playlist

Sound of silence really freaks me out. 24 hours a day, even when (or especially when) I'm getting ready for work or just going out somewhere, it's either radio , or tv or my computer is on just so i'm hearing something other than the (kukulit) squirrels running around the bushes in front of my apartment. (Or the loud stomping of my neighbor upstairs with her big clown feet, or the exhaust humming inside my bathroom). Sometimes all three is on (tv, cd, computer) when i feel the need to drown the thoughts running circles in my mind that if i dwell on them i'd be sobbing, hehe. (Don't you sometimes wish that you can just flick a finger ala-Chandler and make all your thoughts go away? Well I do, most of the time.)


So anyhows, while watching reruns of gilmore girls (jumping to reruns of ER, Project Runway, SpinCity and Becker) and waiting for my pizza delivery to arrive (we love pizza!), and waiting for my laundry to get done...I though of just sharing my musicmatch playlist on my computer.. Like i said, have to drown other thoughts and get busy.

WISH YOU WERE HERE - Pink Floyd - Started to love this song when Marty sang it. (Rockstar INXS)

How I wish, how I wish you were here.

We're just two lost souls Swimming in a fish bowl, Year after year.

Running over the same old ground.

What have we found? The same old fears.

Wish you were here.

BRING IT ON HOME TO ME -Sam Cooke - Still, a RockstarINXS hangover. Sounds a little country and i grew up in a family who looooves singing country music. My cousins, that is.
If you ever change your mind

About leaving, leaving me behind

Baby bring it to me Bring your sweet loving

Bring it on home to me

MR.BRIGHTSIDE- The Killers - Okay, i admit, I'm a Marty Casey fan. I loved his choice of songs.
Jealousy

Turning saints into the sea

Swimming through sick lullabies

Choking on your alibis

But it's just the price I pay.

Destiny is calling me.

UNFAITHFUL-Rihanna -Sooo baduy, most of my friends hate it, but it just grew on me. This could be the story of my life, eh? Hee.
Story of my life

Searching for the right

But it keeps avoiding me

Sorrow in my soul

`Cuz it seems that wrong Really loves my company

BREATH-Anna Nalick- Love singing along with this song. I think she's one of the underrated new artists.
There's a light at each end of this tunnel you shout cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out

And these mistakes you've made You'll just make them again if you'll only try turnin' around
Cause you can't jump the track

We're like cars on a cable and life's like an hourglass glued to the table

No one can find the rewind button girl

So cradle your head in your hands. And breathe

LIVE AND LET DIE-Guns and Roses - Another one of those Rockstar obssession. When I'm getting ready for work...BonJovi, Guns and Roses or Nirvana should be playing or I'll be very grumpy at work. Hee.
You used to say live and let live

But if this ever changin' world In which you live in Makes you give in and cry

Say live and let die Live and let die

CALIFORNIA DREAMING-Mamas and Papas -And then another one. I dont know, but eversince The Blade was playing this on ClassicLite before, melikey.
Stepped into a church I passed along the way

Well, I get down on my knees and I pretend to pray.

You know the preacher likes the cold .He knows I'm gonna stay.

UNWRITTEN-Natasha Beingfield - My sing along tune while on the shower. I have my own choreographed performance of this song already, hehe) Love it!(have to have this or I'll go crazy with all the mushy stuff that's coming..)
Reaching for something in the distance

So close you can almost taste it

Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you

Only you can let it in

No one else, no one else Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken

Live your life with arms wide open

Today is where your book begins

The rest is still unwritten

FAR AWAY-Nickelback - Swack na swack. Hehe. Straight from the Heart.
I love you

I have loved you all along

And I miss you

Been far away for far too long

I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go

Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

LETTING GO-Kim Sozzi - Light at the end of the tunnel. My thoughts exactly.
So now I say the things I want to say

Sometimes it's better letting go this way

I'll always know, down in my soul We really had so far to go

I've given all I had to give and now it's time for me to live

and I won't look back and I won't regret

though it hurts like hell Someday I will forget

COLLIDE-Howie Day-Just included it when i read that zees loves it. And it just kinda grew on me.
The dawn is breaking

A light shining through

You're barely waking

And I'm tangled up in you

I WANNA GROW OLD WITH YOU-Adam Sandler- Like,need i say more?
It would be so nice, growing old with you

HOW TO SAVE A LIFE-The Fray-I wonder, as a nurse, have i really saved anybody's life?
Some sort of window to your right

As he goes left and you stay right

Between the lines of fear and blame

And you begin to wonder why you came

CHASING CARS-Snow Patrol-I'm in love, what can I say. Hehe.
I don't quite know

How to say

How I feel

Those three words

Are said too much

They're not enough

ME AND YOU- Cassie- I don't like her dancing in the video (Heck, magaling pa pamangkin ko eh)but melikey the beat. (Love to love you baby, aww!)
I know them other guys, they been talking bout the way I do what I do

They heard I was good, they wanna see if it's true

They know you're the one I wanna give it to

I can see you want me too

And now, it's me and you

LIPS OF AN ANGEL-Hinder-Find this song weird. But i keep on wanting to listen to it so there, on my playlist.
Honey why you calling me so late

It's kinda hard to talk right now

Honey why you crying is everything okay

TOO LITTLE TOO LATE-Jojo-Just one of them songs you hear over and over on the radio and grows on you.
So let me go now

'Cause time has made me strong

I'm starting to move on

I'm gonna say this now

Your chance has come and gone

And you know...

BE WITHOUT YOU-Mary J Blige- My thoughts exactly!But all the answers are yes. Aaargh.
I got a question for ya

See I already know the answer

But still I wanna ask you

Would you lie? (no)

Make me cry? (no)

Do somethin' behind my back and then try to cover it up?

WAITING FOR A STAR TO FALL-Boy Meets Girl-This is sooo sweet. Melovey this forever.
Waiting (however long...)

I don't like waiting (I'll wait for you...)

It's so hard waiting (don't be too long...)

Seems like waiting (makes me love you even more...)

And, like our AbsolutEBC CD, my playlist also has a story behind it, but I intentionally wrote it down in random so you won't notice. Hee.

Laundry's done, pizza's here...and somebody's at the door...Later!

Manhattan DOES have enough shops!

Went to the city yesterday, forced friends to go and celebrate. Hee. (Haberday! Why God, why?!!) We went to get a facial in Chinatown. (That bitch pricked all my pores.) And it's Anamie's first time to go to SOHO. And, man, did we have a shopaholic great time! Most (if not all...at least every shop we went to, except Victoria's Secret) shops were on sale and there's a fair going on in Little Italy. ( Italian Fair or something coz everywhere italian) Lots and lotsa food on the streets from Grand to Spring..or Broadway. (whichever way you wanna go to.) I would have eaten a bucket full of chocolate dipped strawberries if I didn't just eat Filipino food at Woodside, blech.


Anyways, I'm broke, or close to...well, at least i SHOULDN'T shop till next pay day. I'm saving alright, I'm saving clothes and underwears for the rainy days. Hee. Ika nga ni Joey (on the episode where he won't share food but ate all of the girl's chocolate cake), I'm not even sorry! :)

'Nuff said

Chasing Cars...

If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told

Before we get too old

Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Happy Birthday...

To A Person Who Means So Much
So Far Away
Unable To Touch

For Your Birthday I Want You To Be Happy..Today..and For Always

The One With The Delayed Pics..

I'm trying to insert them into my previous posts, but no can do. (Again, these things are all duh?! to me) So here goes, just random pics....

Train ride to the city, on our way to see The Wedding Singer. That's Stephanie on the left and Cherryl on the right. (Stephanie knows a lot of Tagalog words...gunggong, nakakainis ka, bababa ka ba?...and some more curses, hee)

Pigging out at Bubba Gump. I Love Shrimp!!!!

Party at work. We're known for party-ing too much all the time. This was a birthday party for Stephanie, Jinky and Biju. (He's the one in green scrubs, Physician Assistant, like our residents there)

Nyuknyuk. here's me pretending to work. And like i said, i don't wear uniform, shirt and cargo pants is what i wear.

And this was the kiddie party we went to. Theresa is the one on the right.

Tylene, Jinky, Moi, Stephanie, Nirla(bday mom), Manilla, Ivy, Theresa (Do you notice i'm getting really fat? I'm trying to fill the void...so I eat, and eat, and eat.)

And this was by the beach...Hay, i wanted to go skinny dipping. They were like teasing me to do it, but when they realized i will actually do it, they stopped. Hee.

***I'm waiting for Grey's Anatomy Season 3 premiere right now. They're showing like a summary of past episodes before the season preem. While on CBS, Survivor is showing - NBC, My Name Is Earl/The Office - FOX, Till Death - CW,Smallville. Meanwhile at 9 besides Greys Anatomy on ABC- CBS, CSI-CW-Supernatural. (Not to mention Queer Eye on Bravo, CSI on Spke, CSI Miami on A&E....endless possibilities) And, this is just Thursday. Why oh why have I not bought a TIVO yet? Masisira ulo ni Neo.

Far From Being Sober....

Current mood: Dizzy
Current music: Guns and Roses - Patience

Went to work yesterday and when I got home, decided to just kill time and watch (for the nth time!) Grey's Anatomy, season 2 final episode. And for the nth time, i sobbed so hard, had a terrible headache after.


Every scene on that episode makes me cry. From the Adenosine emergency, to Burke,to Doc, to Izzy, to Denny, and to McDreamy and Meredith. I'm not sure if it has been shown in the Philippines yet so I'm not discussing the episode here. I don't wanna spoil it for everyone. But I'm sure, when you get to watch it, you'll agree with me when I say, it really was heartbreaking.



From George " Just coz you can't say something to someone, it means that you don't wanna say it. You want to, so much, you just can't. You can love someone so much, but don't wanna be with them. But sometimes you just wanna be with someone, even if you don't love them. It's so hard when your brain tells you what you want, but you know that what you really want is totally different. It's exhausting. " 'Nuff said.


Anyways, after watching Grey's Anatomy, with not a minute of zzzz, i have to get up to get ready for a kiddie party for my coworkers kid. Nirla's kid Ernie turned 2. He's soooo adorable! (I want one of those!hee.) We had a lot of fun, with the clown and Barney...yes, Barney was there too! (I'd post pictures but i didn't get to download it yet in my computer. Next time..or maybe later)

Afterwards, since it's a kiddie party, no booze, we headed to the beach to just lay in the sand, drink like a bottle or two before headin home. (Ended up drinking 4 smirnoff coolers) Got my co-workers (young and old) to drink, and it was fun seeing them getting tipsy on just one bottle. Hee. (Bad influence talaga.)

Then after that, like around 7 pm, got home and found out there's a barbecue going on in one of my friend's house. Shamelessly, i went without being invited (it's the alcohol)and continued drinking. Now accompanied with singing and dancing. (Much to the delight of my audience) Maybe it's because i ate a lot or maybe coz i had no sleep, that even when i finished like a 6 pack, i never felt drunk soo i kept on drinking. (hic) When everybody went home at around 1 am, except the boys (they're all married, if not, they're good boys so i feel very safe around them even when i get really, really drunk) and of course my cra-zee drunken twin Cherryl, i decided to play the guitar and sing at the top of my lungs, eraserhead and bon jovi songs...while eating all, as in all the left overs from the barbecue.

Finally decided to go home at around three (after drinking one bottle bottoms up, in 5 seconds), and right now I'm still up, watching Thorn Birds. Don't have any idea why I can't sleep, but still up and about, and ready to go somewhere if somebody calls me. Is it the smirnoff, is it the barbecue, is it Thorn Birds or is it the feeling of sadness for someone that's keeping me up. (I'm not in a bluer than blue mood but sometimes you just feel a little bit down yourself when your loved ones are feeling really blue.Sympathy blues.)


So there, this is my typical drunken day in NY. How's yours? ;-)

"There are a lot of mediocre things in life that we have to deal with, LOVE shouldn't be one of them" ...Dream For An Insomniac (didn't really like the movie, but loved this)

The One With The Red Hot T.G.I.F.

Current Mood - Domesticated. I'm cooking shrimp (again!)
Current Music - Nirvana

1. What's your favorite spicy food? Lips...(Oh yeah, I eat them. And they're hooot! Mwahaha ;-)

2. When was the last time you were in hot water? Last week....Aaargh!

3. Who makes you sweat? Uh...nervous ass sweat? That would be my nurse manager. Hot and sweaty? Well....your guess is as good as mine ;-)

4. How do you fan the flames of love? Keep loving no matter what. It's all about giving, sharing and receiving. And the love you give, share and receive..hehe.

5. How do you keep yourself warm on a cold night? Bubble bath. Been in there a lot lately. Cold summer nights suck! Hehe ;-)


Oh, and this guy is red hot!

T.G.I.F.

Current Mood: Sooo ishleepy. *yawn*
Current Music: I Wanna Grow Old With You


1. What was the most difficult choice you've ever had to make?
Going away...staying away....moving on.

2. What was the one most embarrassing moment of your life?
Hmmm, I don't get embarassed too easily. Emabarassing moments are funny to me. Don't care. Maybe when one of the schupid indian doctors here yelled at me in front of my coworkers when i was new, but it didn't affect me that much too. Ewan.

3. What in your life do you feel most guilty about?
Holding a grudge towards my dad

4. What do you miss the most about another place?
All together now...."Where everybody knows your name....And they're always glad you came..." *sigh* If only life is better in the philippines...and i don't have shopping to do here. *sigh*

5. What do you pray for or about most often?
Good health for my family and friends....


It's 7:25 am and i'm still not sleeping. My body is sooo tired but why oh why can't i snooze? I feel sooo sleepy but can't....what am I doing wrong?!!! *yawn*

The One With The Wedding Singer

I just got home (3:55 am, sheesh) after a day of fun in the city with my coworkers. It was my friend Jinky and Stepahanie's birthday ( we were soooo touched they wanted to spend their birthday with us- and it's like, the whole day they did) , and we've been planning this day of fun for like 4 months but till we arrived at the Penn Station, we still can't decide what musical to watch. (It started with Lion King, and then Phantom and then Mama Mia- but i've watched all of them and I don't wanna watch them again, not that they are not good...they were all grrreat, b-but, eh, just cant watch them again!) Finally, while walking 10 blocks from Penn Station to Time Square ( sinapian din yata ni Eioh tong mga to sa hilig magwalkathon eh), we decided to watch The Wedding Singer....and Whee!!!!!

Ticket sales aren’t what they ought to be (meaning that you can get in without difficulty), we got ours for like $56 + tax and we were like at the far end, no, we were at the last row seats at the very end of the theater. But the upper promenade was like half empty so just before the show started, they gave the $100 seats to us. Whee! Actually, it was a small theatre (just slightly bigger than the Music Museum in greenhills where I saw They're Playing Our Song), so it wouldnt be that bad if we stayed at the back.

At first, I was kinda feeling...eh? Is it gonna be like the movie or is it a whole different story. I don't actually check on Broadway sites or reviews about plays/ musicals that are on Broadway right now, I just know they're on. So when I decide to go watch, I just watch it coz I'm curious. With TWS, I was wishing it would be the same as the movie coz I loved the movie so much, (I just actually watched it again the night before , VH1 Movies that Rock feature) ...and it was! It is exactly the same, and much much more to love!

I think they should just do movies into a musical, that works better than making a movie out of a musical. Rent , i soooo loved (I memorized their soundtrack...every single moo and moan...) but i didn't enjoy the movie as much as I enjoyed watching it live. To think that the movie turned out to be like a movie musical, not a movie movie. (Ngek, am I making sense?) I mean, it was exactly the same, it's just that their not in a theatre so there are more props, locations, etc.

Anyways, (going back to TWS) all the funny songs were there including Somebody Kill Me and Grow Old With You and then some romantic, funny, 80's , rock and other great songs. I'm not sure which ones were original but i definitely love them all. I'm soooo glad the movie soundtrack wasn't available at Best Buy the last time i asked, coz now I'm definitely getting the musical soundtrack. The musical was soo surreal. Awesome.

And guess what, or who....played Sammy, the guitarist of Robie's band who is still in love with the other waitress? Constatine Maroulis! As in!

I never watched American Idol religiously, but I've seen him and watched him sing a coupla times, and I liked him. Surprise, surprise!... it was his second day performing as Sammy, which stupidly enough, we never knew until after the show, when we were eating Pizza at Papa Johns and reading Playbill. Aaaargh! (This is why you always, ALWAYS, have to browse at your Playbill while waiting for the show to start just so you have an idea about the cast, storyline, and acts.) I was actually telling them, 'hala, that guy who played Sammy looks like Jimmy Fallon, parang artista, hindi pangbroadway,' sure enough, he IS Constantine! Galeng galeng, as in! He was sooo funny and can sing and act and dance and make us fall in love with him even with his flock of seagulls hairdo. (ala Chandler, just longer at the back), and his stupidity. Yup, he is the stupid guy there too. Can you imagine? Constantine? I was like so excited when I browsed at my Playbill and found out it was him, the other tables were actually glancing, probably wondering what the hell am I so excited about. Hee.

There was this one song by Sammy and Holie in the show that I love so much, Right In Front Of You...I think this part is the best act of Constantine. It's a song about getting caught into so many different things and people, but the one person that's meant to be for you is just right in front of you. Isn't that sweet? (sigh) There were two teenagers in front of us who were screaming so loud everytime Sammy comes out, and i overheard it was their 3rd night to watch. We thought it was odd, but then when we found out who Sammy was, well, can't blame the kids. hehe.

And, another fun part of the show was the last part. In the movie. the Growing Old song was played in the plane, right? In the musical, Glen and Julia actually went to Vegas , and Robie went to every chapel there to look for them. And along the way, he's gonna be joined by some people on drag doing celebrities like Mr. T (with a sign that says I pity the fool, hee)...Tina Turner, Cindy Lauper, Ronald Reagan...and whoelse is with them?...Imelda Marcos holding a shoe box in a very beautiful Baro't Saya. Isn't that kewl?! As in! (We were like standing up and cheering everytime she has a line, haha. ) And when they find them in a chapel, the drag queens were supposed to be witnesses for the wedding, and then enters Robie singing Growing Old, while Glen was kicked in the crotch by Tina Turner. This scene is very funnee...and soooo romantic.

Whew. The day was a little tiring (coz we had to kill time and walk around from 2 pm till 8 pm, that's when the show starts) but it was all worth it. With The Wedding Singer, being able to give a fun birthday to our friends, a little shopping (finally found a perfect gift, whee!) , and the shrimps (Bubba Gump!) and never ending pizzas we ate....it was indeed a Day Of Fun!

And to end my 18 pages front and back, here's The Song For The One.....

I wanna make you smile, whenever you're sad (yup, been trying)

Carry you around when your arthritis is bad

All I wanna do, is grow old with you (i really do)

I'll get your medicine, when your tummy aches (more than a medicine, i'll nurse you back to health)

Build you a fire if the furnace breaks

So it could be so nice, growing old with you (yes it will)

I'll miss you, kiss you (more than kiss. hehe)

Give you my coat when you are cold

I'll need you, feed you

Even let you hold the remote control (like i'm even gonna get hold of it, duh)

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink (that is, if we eat)

Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink (pwamise, i'm not gonna take advantage, hee)

Oh I could be the one, who grows old with you

I wanna grow old with you ....(Can't say this enough)

Surreal...

And then some more...

You Are A Total Shopaholic!

You have a keen eye for spotting trends before they are hot And sometimes your credit rating takes a beating as a result Consider a job in retail to subsidize your gorgeous outfits Over time, you could become a famous stylist or designer!

Are You a Shopaholic?

Noooo!!! I'm NOT , I'm not!

You Are Most Like Gisele Bundchen

Slightly exotic and perfectly gorgeous

Which Victoria's Secret Angel Are You?

Nyehehe...I wish!

Asus, tama na nga tong mga survey na to...I just can't stop answering them all. Even the kisses and dates i've answered already. Soooo bored! Hee.

The One With The Donuts...

You Are a Powdered Devil's Food Donut

A total sweetheart on the outside, you love to fool people with your innocent image. On the inside you're a little darker, richer, and more complex. You're a hedonist who demands more than one pleasure at a time. Decadent and daring, you test the limits of human indulgence.

This is a funnee quiz....very funneee....Thanks zees!

Farewell to Andre...USOpen 2006

Following the loss, Agassi coaxed himself into his courtside chair and buried his face in a towel. Then he looked up through tear-filled eyes at the more than 20,000 people standing and cheering him in Arthur Ashe Stadium, a tribute that lasted four minutes.

Agassi rose and moved to the center of the court for a second round of bows and kisses to the four sides of the arena, gingerly bending his back.

"I was sitting there realizing that I was saying goodbye to everybody out there, and they were saying goodbye to me," the 36-year-old Agassi said. "It's saying goodbye. It's a necessary evil. But we were getting through it together. That felt amazing."

On A Lighter Note.....It's a dream come true going to the Open...whee! ( And zees, here's more blahblahblahblahblah...sowee. hee)





Hind na makatiis, bungad pa lang, nagpapicture na sa poster ni Andre. Hee. Mabuhay ang mga jologs! Can you tell I'm soo happee?!

And looks like, Andre was running away from me...doesn't matter...i love him!

Was with Cheryl, Dennis and Roy. You can't ask for a better company to the Open than these three. Esp. the two boys, soooo into tennis. Tulo laway all throughout Maria Sharapova's game. She's sooo pretty by the way.

And of course, gotta have a picture with the globe and the fountain.

At the Grandstand, Robredo playing....twas a good game. (Just don't click on the pic, na mamagnify pimples ko. hehe)

Henin-Hardenne playing...blah game, not Justine's match, boring. Armstrong stadium is kewl though.

The One With All The Feelings....ugh

Current Mood - Blech. I'm theeck. *cough*
Current Music - Letting Go by Sozzi (Dawson's Creek soundtrack)

1. When in your life have you been happiest?

I am happiest when i'm with the people i love. One that tops the list is my zeesters wedding...before, during and AFTER is a very happy memory....(I'm in a meadow....)














2.When in your life have you been loneliest? Ay dami. But i dont wanna re-live any of them. I hate being lonely.

3. What is your strongest emotion? Loving...i love with all my heart and soul...and all of me.



4. What is your weakest emotion? Getting angry...i don't get angry often.





5. Right now: happy or sad? Why? Hmmm....i dont know. I can't say i'm happy but i can't say i'm sad too. I just know I'm in love...but not happy about it, or sad about it either. Hehe. Ewan.